so i dont use this website anymore because i think my page isa little too morbid.. if you likem y stuff i am still writting. you can IM me on freelovemusic420... I have had a change in my life and i dont know what is it beut im not so morbid and sad anymore... so yeah.. im happy now ...

my best friend ran away the other day.. sad.. but true. and i was supposed to leave with her but i didnt.. i dont know why i didnt i geuss its just that gut feeling you get like.. when your keeping a secret from the world and everyones constantly asking you what it is.. and its so hard not to tell everyone but somehow your manage to keep it to yourself.. the butterflys from everything all gathering together at once.. like all the emotions in the world are in your stomach.. just fluttering around trying to find a place to go..a place to rest.. a place to escape..i was going to leave.. i swear.. i was... and im not... im lieing .. im here... i wanted to go.. to see the world.. to find myself.. to discover who this person i am today is.. its hanius not knowing who you are.. and having no way to find out... i will one day leave.. i will one day find myself.. i will one day discover the meaning of life and the reason im here... im here for something.. i just dont know what it is.. maybe i was ment to leave.. maybe im really not supposed to be here.. maybe i should be living in a different state with a different name. maybe im ment to just get up a leave.. to run away from everything i have.. to run away from everything iv worked up to until this point.. to run away from everything i dont have and wish i did... to run away and escape from myself.

well its been such a long time siencei have written in here.. not like anyones going to read this but still.. i am not writting in here anymore because my parents look at my stuff and get into my business

well at first i went...everyday writting on DA... but now i dont for some reason... not like i have anything better to do during the day but i dont know...


anyways, im really pissed off... i liked all these bands before they hit "MTV" now their like sold out and it sucks like dashboard confessional and Switchfoot... i saw switchfoot before i knew who they were.. i got switchfoot and dashboard CD in 7th grade...and they didnt hit MTV till when? this year?? ahhh i fucking hate MTV its not even funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah im in school bored. theres nothing to do theres 14 days left arg